Pain… that agonizing feeling. Like countless arrows piercing through your heart. Like scattered needles pricking your skin. Your soul, constantly drenched in tear then repeatedly wrung dry..

Everything is so familiar.. almost too familiar that fear starts to linger. I feel overpowered by thought of what has gone wrong. Doomed that the not so long ago history will repeat itself.

I can recall how my life seems to be on replay every six months for  the past 5 years but it’s only now that I’ve realized how much I have never allowed myself to heal and instead I have been simply writing beautiful thoughts over my cast.. I have gotten used to the numbness that I was not allowing myself to feel which weird cause that has always been my fear, to lose grasp of my emotions.

There were several things that reminded me of thoughts I have simply forced myself to forget. Memories I have tried to banish. To truly forgive and let go.. To allow yourself mourn and feel the pain. To remove the cast that has been covering your heart, to use it again without holding back. To do the things your heart desires. To live in the moment. To know your worth. To value yourself.  To be the best version of yourself. To be whole again.

We all have to go through that healing process, where it’s stiff and the scars are still visible. We just have to face it, live with it for a little bit and believe.. know that it will not be there forever and never let it hinder you from living again.