But I am. smitten by the thought of possibly having him but his heart belongs to someone else. Well at least I think it does because really I have never tried to find out and I never will.
You know how you adore someone for almost everything they are, that the millisecond of their memory makes your heart skip a beat. It is not because of what he does for you but for the person that they are and you can’t help but want to punch the last person in the face for breaking a part of them.
You want to say, ” I want to be yours but you don’t have to be mine,” and you say this genuinely.
It’s not that you are settling but instead you are content to merely know they exist and that you have him in your life.
You ask yourself, almost beat yourself up for being so easily smitten but then you ask yourself, “Why wouldn’t I be?”
It takes so much effort to tell yourself that you feel otherwise. It causes headaches and constant tossing and turning then your left with questions that you will never get answers to because you are too afraid to hear what you think you already know. You argue with yourself and try prove that you are not, when really the easiest thing to do is to accept it and embrace the feeling of being in love.
You’ll sleep soundly because you know the true essence of love is not expecting it back and more than anything you are grateful you still allow yourself to feel.
Then maybe one day he’ll be glad to know .. or not.
With hope that you will find solace, not in the comfort of places you've been to nor in those you've come across with but in the bliss of discovering yourself. 
I dont know why im doing this and i feel like an idiot but this is so buried deep down no one knows this till now…I barely know you but you keep popping up in my mind. Well Ive known you a few years but never had the courage to make that jump. I feel like im always bound by rules and my mind is my prison. You make it seem like everything is possible. The feelings are indescribable. Although we are not “we” I feel electrified just by the thoughts of you and the possibilities/probabilities and what ifs… It makes me feel alive and zedd music etc just lingers in my mind just by the thought of you: a dorky, easily amused, wonderful, free butterfly full of positive energy just dancing away to life. Btw through my own eyes your dancing stopped time (just like in the movies). Im not going to lie and say ive never felt this way before because I have… just once and it was the best feeling especially when you find out it was mutual .People have advised me to go for more(money, happiness, love, etc…) But I cannot be unfair and greedy. I am thankful for what I have now. What more if it was you. I shouldnt be guilty if I say this though..I love you for who you are and im happy ive met you. So I guess youve found your answer just and sorry if its not the right person you hoped for!
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Do I know you personally? This was such a nice comment. 🙂
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If you define personally as hanging out or talking on a regular basis then no, although we did a few times with a few people we both know. Yes i know thats very vague but im not a stranger =p. Im slow on catching any signals and if I do its way later. Or maybe there was no signal and I was just dazzled on my own =). Guys… its typical for most of us.
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Who are you??
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Thats a big question. Somewhat hard for me to reveal at this time. I think we are both in the same boat when it comes to being afraid of the answers we may or may not already know. We are both in our comfort zones but sometimes that doesnt bring out the best results especially when its going for what we love. “A ship is safe in harbor, but thats not what ships are for”-William G.T Shedd. Maybe we can help each other out of this complex situation?
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